Healing Forward

Amazing, when you underestimate one of life’s 360’s. It is even more amazing when you learn to enjoy the way that you perceive them.

A persons eyes can tell you more than they want you to know. Tonight, I observed all of the new eyes in my life. Real and beautiful souls. I felt like family and I sensed belonging.

I chased fireflies and smiled more than I have in a long time.

I was able to forget for a night, in a good way.

Inspired by 

It’s been a bad year and I have some problems

I had to write this down because;

I don’t know how to solve them 

Mentaly unstable

Inside of this garage

“High as fuck.”

Screaming at my demons

They want me to give up
Dad called me today 

He had some shit to say 

Apologizing for the alcohol 

And not being here today 
Grow

Learn to love 

And live like no one else did
Rise up

Show yourself

That you are not “some dumb kid”

The ones they talk about

The kids with problems
Push your fears back

And learn how to love them 
Shit changes 

So do we

It’s up to you to find

Exactly what you need
Reality is fabricated 

Life is what you make it

Know that you are safe

Find happiness 

You will no longer have to fake it
You will make it

You will make it, I promise

The sun is shining upon us

You are here

You are here for a reason

Do not give up on yourself 

It’s the worst kind of treason
We are all connected

It’s never too late 

Stand up and show it 

Say “fuck it.”  to self hate

Slipping 

I grew sour within the hour

Because;

I gained the time to hate myself

Getting high isn’t like getting high anymore

It’s not like seventeen

It’s not like getting high anymore

I’m not saying I’ll try anything more

I’m just low now

 

There’s a small orange bottle in my bottom drawer

Pills again

I know how those things go

I’m low

But;

I want to be lower

I care too much to be

I’m slipping.